Insan yg ku panggil "Ngah"
Pada 6 Dec 2008 yg lalu, abg ku yg kedua; Daud Bin Sulaiman telah kembali ke rahmahtullah pada jam 7.30 mlm di Hospital Changi. As usual, I will bring my kids and pay my mom a visit on every Saturday. That day hb worked morning shift so we wait till 3.30pm before we proceed to my mom's place. Before we went to my mom's place, we went to HyperBaby sale. Hb bought Khairi a new bicycle. Khairi said he wanted to show his new bike to his Pak Ngah. We reached my mom's place about 6.30pm. As usual, Khairi will always asked for his Pak Ngah 1st before anybody else as he is very close to my 2nd elder bro but my 2nd elder wasnt around as he was teaching football.
My mom, as usual, will cook some food for us everytime either me or my bro's family came for a visit. Then at about 7.15pm, I received a call from my 2nd bro's buddy; Abg Mail that my bro is at Changi Hospital. Told my mom about it and she asked me to call my eldest bro to go to the hospital. So my mom, my 3rd bro, hb, Khairi and I went to the hospital. On the way to the hospital, I just sense that something bad had happened to my bro but I try to ignore it. Hb dropped us at the lobby while he went to park the car. Then we saw my SIL and she said that something is not gd about my bro. We proceed to the red zone and my eldest bro hug my mom and said something to her. My mom then start to wail for no reason. I demand to know wat's goin on and when i was told that my 2nd elder bro is gone, my legs just cant support me and I almost faint. I wail and called out for my bro. Just cant believe that he's gone. The nite earlier, he joked with me and thats the last time I heard his voice. We were told that after teaching the students and while everyone was resting, my bro told his fren that he wasnt feeling well and giddy and he need to rest his head on his fren's shoulder. Then for no reason, my bro start to bleed from his nose and gasping for air. Noticing something is wrong, his fren called for an ambulance and try to revive him but my bro was already unconscious. When the ambulance came, the medics try to revive him on the way to hospital and he's still unconscious. Upon reaching the hospital, they tried again but they failed to revive him.
Being the youngest and the only dotter in the family, I'm very close to my 2nd elder bro. From young till now, he's the 1st person I'll go to if I want anything. 2 weeks before his death, hb and i had some misunderstanding and hb called Ngah over. Something happen and Ngah was pissed off with my actions that he beat me up. That's the 1st time he beat me ever since I got married. After we settle the problem, while i was playing with Raiyan in my bedroom, Ngah came into my bedroom kissed my forehead and apologise for beating me up. I told him I dnt blame him, I just got nobody to turn to if I got problem, i cant simply talk to my mom about my marriage problem and I dnt have a sister who I can talk to. With tears rolling down his cheeks, he said " Ngah kan ada. Ngah kan abg ayang.You can just talk to me about anything. Pls dnt keep to yourself cos I dnt want to see you so stress up. Ngah sayangkan ayang tau." Then both of us hug each other and cried. I cant believe that that will be the last time I hug him. Till today, those words will keep playing on my mind and tears will roll from my eyes. I'm more worried about Khairi who is very close to Ngah. Everytime we came to visit my mom, he will plead with his Pak Ngah to ride on his motorbike and my bro will ride with him at the carpark for a few rounds. Khairi will only listen to his Pak Ngah and he's very manja with my bro.
Even though I try to be strong for my mom and Khairi's sake but when I'm alone, I will just break down cos I miss Ngah so damn much. To lepaskan rindu, I will wear his t-shirt or smell his clothes. Now my mom's place is quiet without him, He will always entertain us with his stupid jokes and my mom will definately miss him alot cos now nobody will finish up her cooking. The most hearthbreaking part is that the funeral was on the eve of Hari Raya Haji. Mom was crying non-stop and saying "siapa nak cium mak pagi raya Daud?" as my elder bro always do that to my mom on pagi raya. He's so young. He's only 38 and still single.
Ngah...walaupon ayg redhakan pemergian Ngah tapi hati ini sangat merindui Ngah setiap saat.Sekarang tiada lagi tempat mengadu. I'm now totally at loss. Ayg bersyukur kerana Allah mengambil nyawa Ngah tanpa sebarang derita yg perlu ditanggung. Semoga roh Ngah ditempatkan disisi org2 yg beriman. Semoga kita bertemu nanti di alam Jannah. InsyaAllah..Amin
