Thursday, September 14, 2006
6yrs ago, I join my current job after a recommendation by my best fren; Azlinda who is also my ex-classmate at ITE Bishan. Ramai yg berkata(org2 yg keje kat sini jer yg cakap) MPH Distributors (S) Pte Ltd ni adalah tempat mencari jodoh. Cos ramai colleague yg kahwin dgn collegue sendiri and 1 of them is my hb and I. After 2 mths I join this company, I meet my future husband (now my darling). At that time, I've just broke off with my boyfriend. Sekejap kan dapat pengganti. Hehehe..Both my hb and I are from different departments and different level. I was from the magazines dept and at level 3 while hb was at books logistic department and at level 2. Due to my job connection with the accounts at 2nd level so slalu jugak terserempak with my hb ni. Pada mulanya mmg dua2 tak kenal langsung with each other but that change after the Family Day at the zoo. I went there with my ex as I got nobody to bring along at that time and Suhaimi (my hb) went there with his 2 buddies. We took a group photo together with Azlinda and her bf; Yazid who happen to be my hb's gd buddy and also work at the same company as us and a few others. Since the pic is taken by my hb's camera, so when Azlinda show me the album, I told her to pass the message to Suhaimi (my darling) that I want the pic and she told me to ask him myself. Tak bole harap lah si Linda ni. Mula2 mmg malulah nak bertanya but me cekalkan hati. Since we took the same company transport home, I took the courage to ask Abg Suhaimi ( I called him abg at that time maklumlah cos he's older than me wat) when he sat 1 seat infront of me. The dialog goes like this (masih segar diingatan ku) :
Me: "Hhmm...Abg Amy?!"
Him:" Oh ya saya"
Me: "I nak mintak u developkan gbr kat zoo tu for me bole tak?!"
Him: " Eh bole. Nanti I dah develop, I'll pass kat u eh."
Me: " ok thanks, nanti i kasi u duit for the pic"
Him: "Eh tak payahlah"
Me: "huh? tak payah? betol ni?ikhlas?"
Him: "betol.ikhlas. btw nama u siapa?u kawan Linda kan?"> cara2 mengorat..wakakakakaka
Me: "nama i mas. yup i kawan Linda."
Him: "ok mas, nanti abg pass the gbr bila i dah develop eh"
Me: "ok thanks again"
Wakakakaka..cute kan? From that day onwards macam ada rasa "crush" kat Abg Suhaimi ni. Me slalu tanya pasal my hb kat Linda since her bf; Yazid are very close with Suhaimi. Only she knows that I got crush on him. Hehehe.. I got crush on him but ada 2 mamat lain yg nak kenal2 ngan I tapi me reject. Den 2 weeks later, Suhaimi pass me the photo. Then there is 1 day we took the same train home. At 1st cumer senyum2 simpul after that he came over and talk to me. At that time hanya Allah saja yg tahu perasaan beta ketika itu. Wakakakaka....Since that day onwards, we took the same train and the same gerabak home. Yg kelakarnya, both of us buat mcm tak kenal gitu bila turun dari bus transport at Ang Mo Kio MRT station tapi bila kat dlm train, berbual bukan main rancak lagi and 1 more thing, sblom we approach each other to talk, we tgk depan blakang, kiri kanan just in case we terserempak anyone from our company kat train tu. Kirakan mcm nak sembunyikan our friendship or relationship from the pple in our company. Kalau kat dlm gerabak tu ada yg kita kenal, we dnt approach each other. Hehehe..mcm hubungan sulit gitu kan. Dah 1 minggu berkenalan tapi we dnt have each other handphone numbers. Den there is 1 day when he was about to alight at Bishan MRT station, he ask for my hp number tapi I tak sempat mintak his. Balik terus smsed Linda for Suhaimi's hp number but she doesnt have one and she doesnt want to ask from Yazid either. Nasib baik me ada Abg Saat's (1 of the mamat yg nak kenal2 ngan I but I reject cos badan dia mcm sumo wrestler berbanding ngan I yg slim melim ni) contact number so I smsed him tapi he gave me the wrong number and asked me so many questions of why I want Suhaimi's number (kepo seh). Nasib baik si Suhaimi ni smsed I that night. From that night onwards, start lah kita smsing each other even at work.
From the day we get to know each other, takde org yg tau about our relationship. Not even Linda. On the 3rd day of Ramadhan in November that year, he proposed to me to be his steady and that was only 3 weeks that we got to know each other. Cepat kan?! When we're buying our baju raya at Geylang bazaar, we terserempak with 1 of his colleague, Sam (the other mamat yg nak kenal2 ngan i and I reject him cos he already got a gf) and his gf. Muka dia terperanjat cos seeing both of us so mesra gitu. He and Suhaimi dnt talk much as Sam's gf wanna buy her baju raya at Tanjong Katong Complex. Den there is 1 day when my colleague; Cassandra and I went out for lunch to buy things for Hari Raya party for our department and Suhaimi went out with Yazid to buy baby gift for Suhaimi's sister who juz gave birth to a baby boy, Suhaimi approached me asking for my opinion abt the gift that he had chosen, that is when Cassandra found out abt our relationship. She's very excited of me getting attached with Suhaimi. After 2 mths, we decided to let pple know of our relationship cos penat seh main sembunyi2 ngan dorang cos before that we dnt even sit together in the bus transport. Takdelah buat announcement that we're 2gether cuma we decided to sit together in the bus transport and even have lunch together. From that day onwards, words gave been goin round that we're together and I can happily ride with him on his motorbike home without having to wait for the bus to go 1st then ride his motorbike.
In March 2001, he brought me to this Diamond Jewel Pte Ltd in MacPherson and surprise me by buying a diamond ring that cost $250. I thought that was the only surprise that he will give me but I was wrong. While we're riding home after buying the diamond ring, he proposed to me at the junction at Payar Lebar PIE. Masa tu masih tgh naik motor tunggu trafik light tau. Walaupon tak proposed secara romantik mcm kat tv but I still say "yes" to him. Bila sampai kat my block parking space, he took the ring and sarung kat my jari manis. That was the happiest day in my life. 1 week later, he came over to my house and asked for my hand to my mom and my mom accepted his proposal but on one condition. Kena tahan with my bad-tempered attitude cos she said being the youngest in the family, I'm very pampered but stubborn..Hehehehe..bole gitu...Den on Hari Raya Haji in 2001, his parents came over to merisik and decided that our engagement day is dated 1st of September 2001.
After 2 years mengharungi saat suka duka pertunangan, we're married on the 14th September 2003. The wedding affair was sederhana but a happy occasion for the 2 families. Then in November that year, I conceived. Nine mths later, on the 30th August 2004, exactly 40 weeks of pregnancy, the gift of our love was born. Our love child, Muhammad Khairi Danial.
Happy 3rd Wedding Anniversary Papa. May the love in our marriage still burning till our death do us part. I love you Papa...muacks...
P.S
Panjang seh story I ni..hehehehehe...Happy reading pple..
love me at 12:17 PM
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Today we woke up early at 7 am cos we're going to take our new weekend car at Teban Garden as our appointment with our agent, Sebastian is at 12pm. 1st we head to Bishan as we're meeting my FIL at 9am and den we head straight to Jurong East by taking MRT. Khairi is really excited when taking the train. He just cant keep still in the train, jalan sana sini, halo kat org sana sini. It took us 1 hour to reach Jurong East MRT station, sampai panas bontot ni. From Jurong East MRT station, we took a cab to the Teban Garden as we do not know where is the place to take our car. When we reached our destination, Sebastian was already there to welcome us. He then explain the contract with us again and show us our car; black Proton Savvy. He explain the functions of the car to my hb. After that we're able to take the car home. Kesukaan lah anak aku ni sampai tak reti duduk diam kat dlm kereta. Sekejap ke depan sit with my FIL, sekejap duduk blakang with me. Since the car is new and the agent only top up a little fuel, we have to find a petrol station to top-up the fuel but 1st we head to Ayer Rajah Hawker centre to fill our stomach. Dari pagi tak sarapan so perut kebulur seh. Then we head to Mobil at Clementi Ave 2 to top-up the fuel. Then we sent my FIL home cos he will be driving his taxi later late in the evening. Hubby then decided to drive home 1st as we forgotten to bring Khairi's milk powder before we go jalan2 with the new car.
Bila dah sampai rumah and take the milk powder, while sitting in the car, we have no idea to go where. My hb tgk muka I, I tgk muka my hb and den both of us laugh. Kelakar seh cos sebelom ambek kereta, mcm2 tempat kita nak pegi tapi bila dah duduk dlm kereta, tak tau nak pegi mana. In the end we decided to go East Coast Park and let Khairi play with the sand. Dalam perjalanan ke East Coast Park, Khairi dah start merengek and ask for his milk. It's time for his afternoon nap. Nasib baik I ada buatkan susu terlebih dahulu kat rumah tadi so I just pass him the milk and there he goes to the lalaland. Bila dah sampai East Coast Park, we woke him up and he's so excited to see the sea and the sand. Apalagi start lah dia main pasir & air laut. Yg selengenya, si mama and papa dia lupa nak bawak tuala. Nak tak nak terpaksa beli tuala kat 7-11. Then at 5.30pm, we head to my mom's place. Bila sampai rumah my mom, si kecik ni sibuk tell his nenek abt his papa's car. My 2nd bro took the apportunity to test drive the car cos both my hb and I agree that we will allow any of our family members to use the car if they need it. Tadi bila hantar my FIL balik pon we ask him to test drive the car so that he will be familiar with the car if he uses it. While we're at my mom's place, hb's buddy; Yat who the one recommend this car to my hb called and want to meet him. When my hb told Yat that we're at my mom's place, he say he will be coming over. Yat arrive at my mom's place carpark at 9.30pm with his wifey; Khaty. Walaupon Yat got the same car as my hb tapi dia yg ghairah cos dia cakap seronok dapat kereta baru. Apa saja si mamat ni.Yat then invite us to have drinks kat kedai kopi at his place and we agree. My hb, Khairi and I then went back to my mom's place and salam my mom before we head together with Yat in our own car. Duduk sekejap with Yat and Khaty kat kedai kopi before heading home at 11pm as 2morrow I'll be starting my job after 9 days of hospitalisation leave.Bila sampai rumah, I start to pack my things and Khairi's thing as I'll be sending him to school 2morrow. Dah more than 1 week I neva send him to child care as I'm still on my hospitalisation leave.Ok pple...I'm going off to the lalaland..Nitez
The new car - Proton Savvy
Papa & Khairi with the new car
love me at 12:29 AM
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Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Today I went to Simei with Khairi to buy the bahan2 to make the cupcakes recepi at Phoon Guat. Tgh dlm pantang masih bole merayap seh. Lagipon boring asyik terperuk kat rumah. Then I brought Khairi to Pet Safari at Eastpoint. Kesukaan dia tgk anjing2 yg cute2 tu. Walaupon ada kucing 4 ekor tapi me pon suka tgk anjing2 kecik tu, very the cute and lovable. We then went to Banquet to buy some food for papa. After that we head back home cos me nak bake the cupcakes.
Bila sampai rumah, apalagi me start with my project lah. Told my hb to take care of Khairi while I'm baking tapi dia buat "dek" jer. Sampai terpekik terlolong aku ni mcm tarzan cos si kecik mengacau ajer. Mana main ngan tepung, pecahkan telor and den main senduk pulak. Jgn kek aku bantut sudah. Bila semua bahan2 dah siap digaul, me pon masukkan lah dlm oven. Bila nampak kek tu naik bukan main seronok lagi tapi bila dikluarkan dan disejukkan, terus keras and bantat. Aiseyman, fed-up nya gue. Ni gara2 terpekik-pekik kat Khairi lah tadi sampai kek pon terperanjat. Sorri pple disebabkan kek tu tak menjadi so me tak ambek pic. wakakakakaka
love me at 10:15 PM
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Thursday, September 07, 2006
Today we decided to go back to Punggol. Hubby have taken 3 days leave since yesterday to take care of me. Khairi too will not be goin to school this week just to keep me company. I'm resting well at home with hubby doin the housework. Thank you papa.
love me at 8:29 PM
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Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Yesterday I took a cab to work. I still wearing pad eventhough there's no more brown discharge, just a precaution. Did my work as per normal. Went to the toilet every hour to check on my condition, nothing. As per normal, I was chatting with Kak Eimah and Kak Azian in the late afternoon when I feel the same thing as on Monday. There was brown discharge and a mild stomach cramp followed. Feeling uneasy, I approached my colleague; Jesline from the accounts department. I told her my problem and she told me if I feel uneasy I should go straight to the hospital. The reason I approached her is that she ever encounter this kind of thing. Feeling uneasy as I sensed something was wrong, I decided to tell my boss that I need to go to the hospital immediately. Without hesitating my boss let me go. Before I left my work place, I called my hubby at home telling him that I'm going to the hospital. I walk outside my building and there was a lady driving her car decided to let me ride in her car and alighted me outside at the main road. It is difficult to get a cab at my work place as it was really a "ulu" side. I really dnt know why I didnt called a cab at that time.
While I was waiting to hail a cab, I smsed my SIL telling her my problem. Then while I was in the cab, my elder brother called me. I was already started to cry as I sensed something is wrong with my pregnancy. I told him I'm goin straight to KKH 24 hour Women's Clinic. Then he told me he's on the way there to meet me. When I reached the KKH 24 hour Women's Clinic and register myself, my thoughts have been goin wild thinking something bad goin to happen to my baby. The nurse gave me a bottle for my urine test. While waiting for my name to be called, my hubby called asking how's my condition but I told him that it's not my turn yet and he got the cheek to ask me "mama nak makan apa?" Org tgh panic dia tanya pasal makan!! He told me he cant leave the house as Khairi was having his afternoon nap and I told him it's ok cos my bro is coming tapi dalam hati ni berkata "how I wish u were here with me papa". I know Khairi will throw tantrum when dia dikejutkan but at that time I really felt lonely. One by one my family members called me; my SIL (my bro's wife) and my 2nd elder bro called. I was there crying to myself. When my name was called, the doctor said my urine test is positive and need to do ultrascan to find out wats wrong. At 1st he scan my tummy after I told him that I've already went for my 1st ultrascan at HPB last mth. While he was scanning my tummy, there was "something is not right" written on his face. Then he told me he need to scan below. When he put the ultrascan stick on my vagina, I realised that he didnt poke too deep though and he got a "worried" written on his face. Then he showed me the screen and told me that he didnt see any heart beat at all and there no movement too. My tears just flow like a river when the doctor told me that. I LOST MY BABY.....After I clean myself up, the doctor discuss my condition to me. He gave me 2 options; (1) to wash the baby tonite (last night) and (2) to wait 1 more week to monitor my baby's condition which he says it's a miracle the baby survive as he totally see no survival of my baby at all after the scan and he advise me on the 1st option as he do not want me to bleed at home since I've already got the sympton of miscarriage. Feeling already dampened with my miscarriage, I told the doctor I need to discuss this 1st with my family before I make any decision but in my mind already made up of washing my baby even though it's hard for me to accept the reality that I lost the baby yet again. The 1st person I called is my elder bro and I just cant stop crying at that time. He advise me to call my hubby and my mom. I called my hubby and told him the bad news and I can sense that this matter just feels like nothing to him cos he didnt even comfort me over the phone while I was crying at the other end of the line. I tried to called my mom but no answer. Not long after my elder bro came with him still in his uniform. I just couldnt stop crying at that time. My bro told me to "redhakan" kepergian my baby as Allah sayangkan my baby more than I do and my baby will be much more safer disisi Allah. After he said those words, I just stop crying. Then my hubby came together with my son and my 2nd elder bro. I told my hubby of my decision of washing off the baby as I do not want to memudaratkan my kesihatan if I decided to wait. Then he fill in the application forms for me to be admitted. While I was about to be wheeled to my ward, my mom came and I hugged my mom and cried. My mom cried and told me " bukan rezeki ko ayang, redhakan saja." Then the nurse wheeled me to my ward. Since I drank a bit of water earlier on for my urine test, the doctor scheduled my operation at 11 pm as I've to fast at least 6 hours before the operation. During the time before my operation, my family have been keeping vigil at my bed and keep talking happy thoughts to keep me away from crying.
During my 1st scanning last mth, the nurse told that my baby already has legs and hands forming. When I told my mom that, she said that we must claim back the body as dah cukup sifat. To confirm this matter, my SIL even called the pengekebumian company and they said we should claim the body and semadikan as per normal. About the gender, the doctor will do the procedure and will write in the death certificate. My mom and my 2nd elder bro even gave me $700 for the pengekebumian tu. 2 more hours to go before my operation and I was feeling restless due to the mild cramp that I'm having. At 10pm, my family have to leave the hospital as it was already passed the visiting hour.
At 11pm, I was asked to change into the operation clothings. By 11.30pm, I was wheeled into the operating theatre. In there, there was a chinese lady doctor telling me that it's no point of claiming back the baby's body as I was only about 3mths plus in my pregnancy and when they wash my womb, it will be into pieces and blood. As this is about religious matter, I politely told her that I need to discuss with my husband who is waiting outside the operating theatre. Without considering my thoughts which is sedang berkecamuk at that time, she rudely told me that I'm big enough to make the decisions. Then I told her off "right! I'm big enough to make the decisions but this is regarding religious matter and I need to discuss this with my husband before I do make a decision which I might regret for my whole life!" After that she just go into a room and the nurse told me that she will called my husband so that I can discuss this matter with him. Kurang ajar kan tu doctor!!!! After a malay nurse explain my situation to my husband, both of us decided not to claim the so called body. And I was wheeled back into the operating theatre where I was put to sleep during the operation. At 1.15 am, I was awaken by the nurse at the recuperating room. Then by 1.30 am I was wheeled back to my ward. My hubby was there for me till 2 am to attend to my needs. I didnt feel any pain at all maybe bcos of the anesathic.At 2 am, hubby went home as tomorrow (today) I'll be discharge after lunch if my health permits.
So today after lunch, I was allowed to be discharge and was given 9 days of hospitalisation leave up till 13 Sep. I decided to stay at my mom's place for 1 day and return home tomorrow.
To my frens who have been consoling me, I would like to say thank you for being there for me. I really appreciate your best wishes and the doas u've given me. Thank You again!!!
love me at 10:50 PM
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Today my MIL will go for her umrah later in the afternoon but somehow the flight was changed to midnight tonite. I've already told hubby that I wont be sending her off cos I'm really tired futhermore I've already visit her yesterday with my mom. Hubby called before lunch time asking me to bring Khairi over to his mom's place as his mom wanna see Khairi before she go so I've no choice but to obliged. While I was chatting with Kak Eimah, Kak Shaikah and Kak Azian during lunch time, I feel that some discharge is coming out from down there so I excuse myself to the ladies. True enough there was brown discharge. I got panic and I told them wat happen. They told me not to be panic and monitor my situation every hour. If the discharge goes on then I need to go to the hospital. Alhamdullilah the discharge stop but I'm a bit worried though cos I've been thru miscarriage last year but since I didnt bleed just brown discharge, I tink it's normal.
After work I fetch Khairi and we went straight to Bishan. My MIL told me to send her off at the airport. At 1st I tak nak tapi asyik kena paksa jer so I mengalah. We left my MIL's place at 10pm with 2 vechiles. I ride in my FIL's taxi with the kids while my MIL followed Abg Mail's car with Kak Lela, Rizal and Watie. Reached the airport, the kids bukan main happy lagi especially si Khairi, dapat berlari sana sini. Not long after, Wak Esah came with Kak Lina and her family, Abg Rosley and Kak Zainab with her kids. Kak Lela and I keep looking at our watches cos besok kena keje and the mata already very sleepy. My FIl already sound nak hantar Khairi and I balik tapi my MIL tak kasi kitaorg balik seh, suruh tunggu dia masok check-in baru bole balik, mcm lah aku tak keje besok dah lah mc dah unpaid apalagi cuti dah takde. Bila dah kul 12 mlm, masih blom check-in jugak my FIL cakap tak payah tunggu, bukan main happy aku ni cos sememangnya badan ni dah terlalu letih and mata dah mengantuk. So me apalagi cepat2 salam semua org and si Khairi ni pulak meragam tak nak balik. Sampai rumah genap kul 1 pagi. Smsed my hubby that besok tak hantar Khairi and I'll be waking up late and will be taking a cab to work. Tukar baju and tukar baju Khairi yg sudah tdo tu terus landing..ZZZzzzzzz.....
love me at 1:40 AM
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Sunday, September 03, 2006
Today I went to my mom's place with Khairi as we're goin to my MIL's place later on together cos my MIL will be goin Umrah with her sister; Wak Esah tomorrow. Reached my mom's place at 5pm and then we took a cab to Bishan. Alysa and Edrin were there too so Khairi play with them. Not long after my hb's cousin and her family came. We left my MIL's place after maghrib and I stayed awhile at my mom's place before going back at 9pm. Tekak ni terasa nak makan ikan sardine masak kicap so before I went back I bought 1 can of sardine. Balik rumah jer apalagi masak lah ikan sardine tu. Sememangnya I tak suka masak lauk sardine cos leceh kena goreng the sardine 1st tapi mlm ni mcm rajin gitu kan. Dgn sekejap jer lauk ni dimasak. Apa angin aku malam ni masak?hahahaha...
love me at 11:07 PM
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The new car - Proton Savvy
Papa & Khairi with the new car